...cant sleep...

Well what do you know...11:24pm, what should be an end to a very UNproductive night, isnt the end quite yet. I cant sleep. I wish I had someone to talk to. I dont know who. But just anyone. I guess thats when this thing comes in handy. Lots of emotions goin thru me at the moment. Most of em not so good. Just need a good cry I guess. I dont want people in my house to know Im crying. Grandma will think me and Dan are fighting. Dan will get upset because he'll think its his fault when he doesnt think he's done anything wrong. And he hasnt. Im just sad. Cant a girl just be sad once in a while? Without having to justify every tear?

Times like these, I usually like to just sit outside and talk to my dad. Yeah I know...kinda crazy. But it would make me feel better. I could cry and talk really softly so nobody could hear. But I felt better thinking he was there listening. And in the end, I knew what he would say if he were really there. Somehow he would always find a way to make me smile. No matter how much it hurt. And he would make me feel stronger and courageous. Funny how a daddy can make a girl feel, huh? I wish there were somebody else like that now. I know a lot of people who would be willing to listen....but nobody I feel so comfortable with. Nobody who understands me so well.

What a coincidence....my cousin Nee is texting me. Ooh, and Nan is online. I guess I have an angel out there who knows I really needed someone to talk to :)